kan... lama x menulis di sini. been busy with work, study n banyak update kt insta je... How are u dear readers? Masih ada lagi kah pembaca blog suam2 kuku ni? Kadang tu sampai terpikir nak tutup ja blog ni... sbb penyakit malas nak update. Sebab lebih mudah update di insta... Anyway, I alhamdulillah...sihat walafiat. Bagai di pam pam rasanya. Now berat adalah yg paling maksima penah i alami. Huhuhuhu.... thanks to pemakanan yg tidak dijaga and tidur yg x teratur. Kehkehkeh...But i know it is an alasan je... Boleh je nak diet... cuma bila nak diet, mesti ada terpikir 'esok la...', 'nxt monday la'. Huhuhuhu... Siapa geng ngan i perangai cam ni sila angkat tangan. Life is great. Amna is now 4 months old. Belum buleh memusing lagi untuk meniarap. Tapi kalau ditiarapkan, boleh la dia bertahan agak lama. Skang tengah belajar nak memusing. Dia rajin 'membebel'. I slalu post bebelan amna kat my insta. Memang banyak gambar and video amna ja kat my insta tu... coz ...

As mentioned before, i memang dah niat nak jadikan Amna anak susuan i. Selain dari memudahkan isu aurat, i want Amna to grow up with my milk and nak lagi kuatkan bonding kami as mother and child. It is not an easy journey... Masa bulan pertama ambik amna, rutin pam i terganggu. Masih x biasakan diri lagi dgn new routine of having a baby. Bila x konsisten pam, pengeluaran susu terbantut. elok2 i dah ada susu sikit2, pengeluaran susu tu jadi x meningkat and ada penurunan sikit...  Kalau nak ikutkan give up, banyak kali dah i give up. Penat. Sebab Amna x mau nyusu direct feed coz susu i sikit sangat. Pls bear in mind, i dapat Amna masa dia dah 2 minggu. She was already fully breast feed with her biological mother. So bila i try nak susukan dia, (supaya dia dapat rangsang susu i), dia meraung raung x nak sebab sikit gila susu i. 2-3 kali sedut abih dah. Huhuhu... Bila i bagi masa dia dah kenyang, dia tak nak pulak. I tried use medela nursing system, susahnya ya Allah... sus...

Ok, i bukan la terer sgt english ni. Smtimes i pon ada salah eja. But if u encounter wrong spelling or wrong word used yg boleh bagi makna lain, would u tegur that person? Bgtau yg wassap dia/updates dia di blog/fb ada salah guna perkataan or wrong spelling? Sbb mcm serba salah... takut salah paham berlaku kalo ditegur, kalau x tegur pulak, kesian plak kt org tu.  Kalau i rapat ngan org tu, i akan tegur. Kalau i x rapat, i x berani nk tegur sbb takut teguran disalah ertikan...  How about u? Ni contoh... nak kata door gift jadi doggie 😅 Till then 😘

Hello dear readers... Masih ada lagi ka readers blog sendu ni. Hahahaha... Anyway, how are u? I doakan smg u all sihat sejahtera dan diberikan kelapangan hati buat semua. I'm back to the office since last tuesday. After 2 months of leave, memang lemau ler nak masuk opis balik. But life must go on... x keje, x dop gaji la pulak kan... huhuhu...mengumpul kekuatan dan semangat. Masa keje mmg dok teringat Amna. X zabar eh hakak ni nak balik umah jumpa Amna... hehehehe... Orait... i still hutang u all cerita on the process of adoption kan... Memula ingat complicated la sangat sebab nak kena pi court bagai... rupanya idak la complicated mana... Orait... on 30/8, i and My Dear Hubby pegi court untuk proces akuan bersumpah mengambil Amna sebagai anak angkat kami. We met Amna's biological mother kat court tu. Sebab the biological mother kena buat akuan bersumpah juga mengatakan dia serahkan anak tu pada keluarga angkat. Pesuruhjaya sumpah di mahkamah tu kemudiannya akan buat ...

Time... That is what i'm lacking now. Or rather time management.  It's been more than 2 weeks since we have our baby, Amna. Lintang pukang awal2 tu. Maklum la... X biasa. And my mental preparation was only 2 wks prior to her arrival. X mcm mothers lain who had 9 months to get ready.  Honestly, i do feel stress. Especially bila Amna nangis yg i x tau punca. Feel so helpless. Rasa nk nangis sama. Hahaha...  I demam malam kami bawa amna pulang ke rumah. Pakej skali ngan cirit birit. Imagine la nk suaikn diri dlm keadaan x sihat tu. 3 hari juga la i demam n cb. Lps pi klinik, mkn ubat baru ok. The nite i pi klinik tu, balik dr klinik tu amna nk susu. Steriliser botol susu amna baru ja siap sterelised. Bila i buka penutupnya, habis tangan i kena steam panas. Ni gambar 6 days after kena. A reminder to me sebenarnya. To Remain calm. Alhamdulillah today the wound dah elok baik. Also Alhamdulillah, amna is not a fussy baby. Cuma skang ni ada problem on susu formula. Sepanjang dudu...

I memang dah lama niat, kalau ambil anak angkat, i nak jadikan dia as anak susuan. Selain mudah untuk kami jaga aurat sekeluarga, breastfeeding is actually a bonding time.  18 August 2016 I met the lactation consultant at Hospital Pantai Bangsar. She is a freelancer, but the hospital given her an office there. Masa consultation tu dia tanya macam2 la... Penah buat rawatan kesuburan ke tak, penah mengandung ke tak, bila nk dapat baby, waktu kerja bila, waktu rehat bila etc. Basically the interview adalah untuk memudahkan dia merancang plan to induce milk yg sesuai dgn gaya hidup kita.  Then the consultant tgk physical appearance of the breast and show how the pumping session is done. I don't have to worry about buying pump lagi for now, sebab the consultant tu bagi sewa pump for rm200/month. According to her, better pakai hospital grade pump because it is for stimulation purpose. The one in commercial market, lebih sesuai kalau untuk express milk for those yg ada susu. Sbb i ma...

20 August 2016 It's been a week since we made the decision. Today, i ponteng kelas 🙊🙊🙊🙊 pi beli barang2 for my baby. Since i x tau barang apa i nak beli utk baby ni, my husband ajak my sil n mil to join us. Seronok tgk mil pun semangat nak sambut my baby 😊 OMG!!! Seronok gila sopping eh!!! Bukan apa, excited tgk baju2 baby girl... Cantik2... My sil n mil advised us barang apa nak beli, apa yg x perlu. Kind of educational shopping if u asked me 🙊.  Balik umah, terus prepare tempat nak letak baju baby. Baju2 yg dah dibeli siap2 cabut tag harga. Later2 la kita basuh. At the same time, jot down juga apa barang2 yg masih x cukup lagi. 22 August 2016 We have finalised the date to take our adopted baby from her mother. It is on 30th Aug! Am so excited!!! X sabar nk jumpa my baby... We'll have a long journey to plan n travel nxt wk. Can't wait! 😁 Nanti i cerita how is the process ya... 23 August 2016 Hari ni baby dah kluar dr spital. Alhamduli...

15 August 2016 Time to put plan into motion. Pagi2 i dah ngadap boss and inform him that I'll be taking unpaid leave for 2 months to care for my newborn adopted child. Alhamdulillah...boss i OK ja... Then, shoot to KLCC. Had lunch with my BFF. Waktu i share the news with her, i siap nangis lagi tau! kat Secret Recipe masa tu. Org yg mkn sebelah kitorang heran agaknya tgk apasal la minah ni nangis... huuhuhu... that was a happy tears OK. I can't count how many times i have cried talking about my baby. Even lepas solat pon i nangis sbb rasa syukur sgt Allah bagi peluang ni... After lunch, jumpa my indirect boss and inform her my plan as well. Alhamdulillah, settle... 16 August 2016 In the morning, went to clinic yg i slalu pegi, tanya if klinik dia ada bagi ubat for induce lactation. The answer was NO. The doc asked me to see my Gynea instead. So i set an appointment on the next day to meet my gynea. Then I submitted my Unpaid Leave application form. Held department meeti...

Backdated Entry: 12 August 2016 Friday, the Blessed day of the week. 11.36 am. I was browsing my lappy kat opis, tgh tgk barang2 nak beli utk bakal anak kucen i. This was the starting point, when my life starts on emotional roller coaster journey. My phone's ring out a tone signaling A wassap msg coming. It was from my sister, saying that a baby is available for adoption, the mother is at the hospital already and whether i want to adopt the baby or not...  And i was like 😱😱😱😱😱 whattt???!!!! Is this really happening? Menggigil i dapat msg from my sister. I mmg x aktif mencari anak angkat. And up to some point i really wanted to try on my own. It was so sudden, but my heart immediately wanted to say yes... but i'm working and i have classes on the weekend. The baby is newborn. Cemana i nak jaga? And a lot of other doubt came into my mind. I told my sister, to give me some time and let me discuss it over with MDH. Lepas i bertenang seketika, i msg MDH about ...

Can't wait! U all pun tertanya tanya kan... Hehhehe... Poyo je i buat countdown...  Don't worry... Esok akan terjawab segalanya... Sapa nak teka countdown utk apa... Meh teka... Till then 😊

If u asked me, yes... I'm ready since the past 11 years 😊

Am so excited that i don't even care that i have mid term exam tomorrow 🙈🙈🙈🙈

Jom countdown with me...

Picture says everything... Panic mode: on!

Dah makin besar...  Anak sedara i dah suh datang umah dia pilih anak kucen mana i nak... Huhuhu... X dan lagi nak pi... Kelas je kan on weekend...  Sementara tu, meh enjoy gambor kucen2 ni... Geram nyee tengok 😍😍😍

Entry ni patutnya i buat bulan lepas...tapi busy... ni baru teringat nak post pasal nih... It was not a light decision to make. Well, at least for me. It is additional responsibility...bertanggungjawab terhadap nyawa lain. Kita yg bagi makan, kita yg kena jaga. Nak pegi mana2 lama2 pun, kena consider 'dia'. Balik kampung, sure la kena angkut skali kan...takkan nak tinggal kat umah... But from my limited experience, it could be fun kalau 'dia' ada... seronok tgk keletah 'dia'. Terpikir jugak, kalo i outstation nanti macam mana eh? But when i think again, why not...org lain pun outstation gak...kalo org lain bleh manage, why can't i kan? Yes, i think I'm ready for this responsibility... Masa mak dia ngandung pun my SIL dah tanya2 i nak tak 'anak' tu. After pikir betul2, akhirnya i agree... Litter of kitten kepunyaan anak buah i... Ahahah... Poyo je kan i ni... InsyaAllah one of these kitties will be my 'anak angkat'. Skang n...

Ahahaa... yo yo an je i nih... not really adrenalin rush... but excitement from the watching beregu lelaki badminton Malaysia yg berjaya ke perlawanan final. I saw the game since the 2nd set. Fuhhhh!!!! Sangat mendebarkan. I plak yg terlebih excited and stress menyokong kat umah... huhhu... Anyway, all the best Malaysian team! p/s: 2-3 malam ni asik la terbangun tgh malam...pastu mata terkebil kebil x leh tido eh... huhuhu... Can't stop my brain from thinking and thinking... in addition to nak exam next week, tapi study x lagi eh...adoi la....

Oh my... When was my last entry? I don't even remember... Huhuhu... Ada lg ke readers blog suam2 kuku nih... If there is any, am really sorry for the lack of update. I just have a lame excuse that i was so busy with my work n study (and of course updating my insta 🙊). I found it easier to update my insta since it is very convenient n just need simple updates. Anyway... How are u my dear readers? As for me, a lot is happening right now. With work, with my personal life. Since naik dari cuti raya hari tu, i memang x dop weekend dah. Been going to my classes. And tomorrow pun i ada kelas... But somehow, i woke up in the middle of the nite and my eyes refuse to sleep... (Sigh... Jgn tido dlm kelas esok sudah la...) May be because i have a big decision to make. And make it fast. A decision that will affect my life forever. Am praying that Allah will guide me, in making this decision and grant us kebaikan dari keputusan yg dibuat nanti. Will blog sbout it soon (err... Don't co...

Hari ni ada pot luck opis. Saja buat makan2... I ditugaskan bawak pencuci mulut. Sebenarnya lama teringin nak makan pavlova. Since bulan posa ri tu. Tapi malas kemain nk buat sendiri. Nak kecah2 dapur. So amik kesempatan ni order mini pavlova ngan cik Sal. Mmg sedap sgt mini pavlova ni. X manis sgt n buah2 x masam sangat. Cukup sedap lah pendek kata... 😋 Hehehe... Dah tercapai hasrat nk mkn pavlova. Lepas ni kita diet balik ya 🙊🙊🙊🙊 Kehkehkeh... Till then 😊

Ya Allah,  Kurniakan dia Rahmat dan Kasih Sayang Mu, Pimpinlah dia menjadi hamba Mu yg soleh,  Tingkatkanlah iman nya,  Mantapkanlah taqwa nya,  Berikan kekuatan buat nya untuk memimpin ku ke syurga Mu... Semoga kau pertemukan kami di syurga Mu ya Allah...  Sanah helwah abang 😘😘😘 https://instagram.com/p/BIlvRMcjWaH/

 Just sharing my ig posting today...  https://instagram.com/p/BIUGGDJj2bf/ Dulu pun i dah penah blog pasal ni... Come on people... Exercise sket n letak la troley tu kat tempat yg sepatutnya... Bukan susah sangat pun kan? 

I mmg suka pakai jubah/abaya. Kalo datang hari malas, mmg jubah/abaya la yg i pakai.  Pg td, my sister forward this link on abaya... OMG 😍😍😍😍 cantik cantik abayanya... Meh cuci mata sket tgk abaya from UAE ni... The abaya skali ngan shawl. Cantik kan? Well, at least to my eyes la nampak cantik... 🙊🙊🙊 Well, if u olls nk cuci2 mata tgk abaya ni (banyak sgt choices nk buh kat sini) pls visit this page: https://m.facebook.com/NiaApparel/albums/514948488694094/ Hurry! Order close on 25th July 2016  (Yeay... Dah gaji 🙈🙈🙈).  Till then 😊

Hi dear readers...  Tallypress.com tengah buat undian 'Top 10 Photo Booth Vendors in Malaysia'. I nak minta jasa baik kawan2 utk buat undian and vote Urban Snaps Photo Booth. This is my brother's photobooth 😊 You can cast your vote at the following link: http://www.pollbookapp.com/Share/399697 Just click like sign kat Urban Snaps Photo Booth ya... Thank You for your vote... Till then 😊

Assalam dear readers... Lama cuti dari menulis di blog ni... I Banyak update di insta. Hehehe...  Macam mana raya uolls? Raya i tahun ni sederhana. Menyambut raya di rumah Mil (walaupun patutnya giliran i tahun ni) sebab MDH keje since a day before raya sampai la raya ke empat. Tak jalan mana2 except for rumah jiran belakang umah mil. Sebab mil pun x berapa sihat kan... Nevertheless, seronok dapat berkumpul ramai2, masak sama2... Tahun ni i in charge masak rendang ayam cili api. Pergh... Mmg sedap la... Kehkehkeh... (X malu puji diri sendiri). Sedap sebab masak sambil dipantau master chef mil ;-)  Raya ke lima, baru la beransur ke kampung i... Tapi kan... Ada tragedi raya sesampainya i di rumah my parent... MDH dah tinggalkan beg baju i kat umah mil! I balik kampung sehelai sepinggang ok! Huhuhu... Kelakar plak rasanya... Seb baik balik umah parent sendiri. Ada lagi la baju2 lama i dalam almari tu. Tapi bila pi beraya umah makcik pakcik i di kampung tu, memang ...

Dear Readers, The last day of Ramadhan.  Sekejap lagi, akan berlalu pergi... Diiringi takbir memuji kebesaran Ilahi.  Sekejap lagi, Syawal akan datang.  Ku susun sepuluh jari mohon keampunan... Atas segala khilaf dan kesilapan. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Moga Allah terima amalan kita... Moga kita kan bertemu lagi dgn Ramadhan yg akan datang... Amin...

Orang lain sibuk buat persiapan raya, i sibuk pi registration for my class 😅 One of my resolution this year is to complete my ACCA study. I begin this journey since 2003. Huhuhu... Now 2016, i intend to complete my study.  Hari ni registration day and 1st day of my class. Since i buat part time, my classess is only on weekend (huhuhu... No more relax2 tgk tv on weekend 😭😭😭). Tengok2 keliling, i bet these students are much younger than me... Hehehhe...  Beratur nk amik gambar student card Well, do pray for me ya... Smg i dapat capai azam i nk habiskan my ACCA qualification ni... Amin... Ok, kelas nk start dah... Till then! P/s: i now bnyk update @ my insta... U r welcome to follow me @ ninaafida

credit to owner Tik..Tok..Tik..Tok.. Kita di fasa kedua Ramadhan. Pantas benar masa berlalu, Adakah kita dapat Rahmat Allah di bulan Ramadhan ini? Adakah kita mendapat keampunan Allah di bulan yg penuh barkah ini? Adakah kita akan dapat melepaskan diri kita dari api neraka usai Ramadhan ini? Tik..Tok...Tik..Tok... Masa terus berlalu... Tik...Tok...Tik...Tok... Adakah kita orang2 yg rugi? Yang membiarkan Ramadhan berlalu tanpa usaha memperbaiki diri? Tik..Tok...Tik..Tok... Ayuh! Kita masih berkesempatan mengejar Rahmat, Keampunan dan Pelepasan dari api neraka... Teruskan melawan hawa nafsu, perbanyakkan ibadah dan tadarus... Jangan lelah... Kerana Ramadhan hampir sampai ke penghujung...

Orang mungkin pandang kita sebagai seorang yg mulia, Mungkin juga mereka mempunyai persepsi yg bagus-bagus tentang kita. Mereka rasa hormat kerana kita berpendidikan tinggi,  Mereka rasa hormat kerana kita berpangkat, Mereka rasa hormat kerana kita berharta... TAPI... Sekali aib kita diketahui, hilang terus rasa hormat itu...

Rezeki tak di sangka-sangka...  Hari ni ada visit by VIP from the shareholder company. Macam biasa, kena pakai uniform. So hari ni decide nak pakai seluar color hitam i yg dah lama x dipakai. Masa meeting, tetiba rasa ada kertas dalam poket seluar. Seluk poket n..... MasyaAllah... Subhanallah... Sayang sungguh Allah pada i... Diberi rezeki tambahan. Mungkin dulu Allah gerakkn hati i nak simpan duit ni dlm poket seluar tu and forgot about it, supaya i dapat duit tu hari ni, utk belanja raya... Alhamdulillah.... Maka nikmat Tuhan mu yg manakah yg kamu dustakan...😭😭😭

If u follow my blog, u would know i don't write about politics. But what i read today really puzzle me... I read about the kidnapping of 4 sarawakians, and about the rm12 millions that was raised by the family members.  What puzzled me - why the hack it was donated to charity? It wasn't even government's money. The money was raised by the family members. Siap gadai umah lagi... Kenapa tak dipulangkan kepada ahli keluarga tu semula kalau mmg the money was not used in negotiating with the kidnapper?  Pelik kan? Lately ni rasa macam senang sungguh nak dapat donation 2.6 juta and senang2 jugak nk bagi donation 12 juta 🤔. Be truthful and jgn putar belit. I admit i didn't know the whole story, but from my reading the story is really puzzling... #jgnperbodohknrakyat Click here for the story

'Dia' memang tak akan senang duduk kalau kita jadi hamba Allah yg taat. 'Dia' akan sentiasa menggoda kita supaya ikut jejaknya menjadi kufur. Kerana, 'Dia' sudah bersumpah akan menyesatkan anak Adam... Kecuali hamba Allah yg ikhlas... A reminder for us..

MasyaAllah... Pantas betui masa berlalu... Dah masuk second week kita berpuasa dah... Bulan ramadhan ni, alhamdulillah company bagi balik pkol 4.30. Ingatkn dah cukup awal tu... Rupanya jam jugak ya... It took me almost an hour to reach home. But better la kan... Smpai umah pkol 5.30 ptg, solat then terus masak for berbuka. Lauk nk masak selalunya dah pesan kt MDH suh kluarkan siap2. So x la banyak masa habiskn tuk defrost lauk tu. Kalo MDH keje malam, i beli ja lauk brbuka... Sorang2 kan... X kose akak nk masak...  Lauk berbuka semalam, grilled lamb, mashed potato, grilled vege and kurma goreng But i pity those yg x dpt kelonggaran balik awal di bulan ramadhan. Jumaat Last week, i balik kampung, pkol 5 ptg bertolak dari rumah. Allahu... Jam sepanjang jalan! Perjalanan yg selalunya ambik masa sejam, jadik 2 jam setengah hokey... Sampai umah my mum ngam2 buka posa.  To those yg sangkut kt dlm trafik di bulan2 puasa ni, banyakkn bersabar ya... Smg pahala puasa ...

OMG, rasa macam lama gila x tulih blog (baru seminggu je kot)... blog walking pun x sempat... huhuhu... For the past weeks, I was busy with completion of audited accounts, sampai la Board Meeting pagi tadi. Settle dah dua2 company...and alhamdulillah the board meeting went well. X kena marah teruk2 pun... reminder jer from the directors... heheheh...OK la... skang dah bleh senyum sampai telinga and relax sket. Esok i coti...yeay! Coti ganti sempena Agong's bday on saturday. Then monday, i amik coti. Saje2...nak rehat sket lps hempas pulas siapkan audit. heheheh.... And this monday dah start posa! Subhanallah.... sekejap je kan masa berlalu... kadang dok pikir, apa achievement i this year, nak abis half of the year dah, tapi mcm sibuk keje but don't know what i did... LOL... Anyway, just wanna wish u all Ramadhan Kareem... Semoga Ramadhan tahun ni lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya, and semoga Allah pertemukan kita dgn malam lailatul qadar... Amin... Till then :-) goog...

Usai solat maghrib tadi, termenung sejenak. Allah... lelah rasanya... Esok hari terakhir submission Board Paper. Tapi audited account i masih belum finalised... Board meeting is next week! And i was suppose to submit my paper a week before the meeting. Dah 3 kali i tunda tarikh submission. And tomorrow was my last chance. Kalau tidak, bersedialah untuk kena marah dgn Board Members... Serabut otak i mikir... Berat rasa bebanan kerja ni... I have done everything from my part. And now, i just have to wait for the matter to resolve. Terus i baca surah al-insyirah, moga Allah lapangkan hati dan fikiran i. I hayati bait2 ayat surah ini... ada kesenangan dalam kesulitan. Sesungguhnya ada kesenangan dalam kesulitan... dan i panjatkan doa semoga Allah leraikan kesulitan ini... Pasrah... I berserah pada Nya. After isya', dapat message from auditor. He said the outstanding matters dah settled. And the figure can be finalised. He will send the draft tomorrow morning. Subhanallah... Alh...

Kalau di beri pilihan... Kamu mahu wang berkepuk?  aku beri.  Tapi syaratnya, kamu tidak akan dapat anak, dan kamu hanya akan hidup berdua dgn pasangan mu sahaja sehingga kamu mati. Kamu mahu? Kalau diberi pilihan... Kamu mahu harta dan segunung intan permata?  aku beri... Tapi syaratnya, kamu tidak akan tahu apa itu rasa bahagia, tenang hati, jiwa dan raga.  Kamu mahu? Jgn banding bahagia orang dgn bahagia diri sendiri... Allah Maha Adil... Rezeki diberikan dalam pelbagai bentuk. Sesuai dgn kehidupan kita, sesuai dgn tanggungjawab kita... Kamu nampak kamu kurang di sini, tapi org lain nampak kamu lebih di sana.  Gembiralah dgn apa yg ada... Sebab bila2 masa nikmat itu boleh ditarik sekelip mata... Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal...

Marah macammana pun dengan org lain, please la jangan dilempiaskan kemarahan tu ke org lain pulak. Today, first day I masuk keje minggu ni. I cuti semalam. Masuk opis, biasa la...ada queries from auditor yg nak dijawab and kena follow up on request balance confirmation dari shareholders. Since one of the shareholder x reply lagi, i sent an email requesting them to reply. She called me. In a tone yg menunjukkan dia tak berpuas hati, and ask...why she need to confirm the balance? According to her, it looks like she is the one yg buat keje auditor. (Financial auditor out there, nak tanya...bukan ke salah satu cara yg paling tepat ialah balance confirmation from 3rd party? Instead of doing vouching dari revenue and receivable balance kan? I ni lama dah x buat audit on financial reporting ni...tapi rasanya kalau ikut ranking, confirmation dr 3rd party lebih baik dari vouching internal document kan?). I ni memang penyabar orangnya, tapi sabar i ada limit juga tau. Bila sampai taha...

Satu hari di HUKM, masa i melawat my MIL, doktor pelatih datang ke katil my mil. *DI- doctor intern *I- me DI: puan, boleh saya interview tentang pesakit? I: silakan... DI: patient sakit apa ya? I: Ada tumor dalam usus besar.  DI: how did the patient found out she has tumor? I: she's been having abdominal pain for the past 4 days. When we went to specialist they did MRI and found a tumor in her large intestine.  DI: owh... Dah operate ke?  I: belum. But doctor will do it asap as this is considered emergency case. The intestine is blocked. They will take the tumor out and check whether the tumor is benign or malignant. DI: ic... Okey. Tq for your time. I: no problem. You all student tahun ke berapa ni?  DI: third year. Ermmm... Puan ni doctor ke? Hehehehe... Ada muka doctor agaknya i ni 😅 P/s: Alhamdulillah, the surgery went well. Doc kata mudah ja urusan pembedahan my mil. Skang ni concentrate on recovery. Terima Kasih kepada semu...

My MIL sangat baik. I'm so lucky to have her as my mother in law. Rezeki yg x semua orang dapat. Dia x pernah pressure I pasal anak. She knows my condition and she understood. She was the one who took care of me after my 2 laparascopic surgeries and my 2 IVFs. She is one strong women, taking care of her kids when FIL passed away. Last week, my MIL sakit perut for 3 days. Actually she was having abdominal pain since past 3 months, tapi it was on and off. Cuma last week sakit tu berterusan, hence she decided to go to hospital. Doctor prescribed her panadol & antibiotic, saying that she has Urine Track Infection. She asked the doctor, x payah nak scan ka apa ka? And the doctor said, NO need. The next day, makin sakit. My hubby asked my BIL to take my MIL to Salam medical centre. After MRI, doc found out tumor in her large intestine. The intestine was blocked and the tumor area dah bengkak. Doc suggest to operate soon, as the MRI result is not looking good. But since cost pembe...

Last week, persatuan penduduk wanita kawasan perumahan i anjurkan program mamogram. Alhamdulillah, berkesempatan join kali ni. Last year, x bleh join sbb dia kata only 40 years and above je yg boleh. This year penganjur kata 35 years above bleh pi. Laju i sign up.  Tapi bila sampai hospital, registration i x diterima sbb belum 40. Akak yg anjurkan program tu suruh tunggu sbb dia nak check dgn wakil hospital yg dia deal with tu. According to them, those yg below 40 breast tissues are still dense. Kiranya mcm x nampak sgt la result mammogram tu. But those yg bawah 40, atas 35 tahun kalau ada faktor risiko, boleh buat ujian ni. Macam i, since I'm above 35 years and never been pregnant, plus my aunty has cancer history, so they allowed me to do the mammogram. bilik mammogram Prosedur mammogram went well. Macam nak x-ray jugak, u kena buka semua pakaian (belah atas ja, so better pakai baju yg 2 piece instead of jubah/dress) n pakai hospital gown. Semua accessory diperbu...

Sepanjang hidup i, i tak pernah makan/minum jamu. Bukan apa...bila sebut jamu ni, dok terbayang pahit dan tak sedap. Ye la kan... ubat2 mesti selalunya pahit & x sedap. Rasa macam loya tekak la kalo nak telan... Until..... Kawan i promote kat I Ell Jus Herba. Skang ni pagi2 mmg minum jus herba ni... Memula tu macam... err... nak try ke? Kang x lalu, membazir ja... My friend kata, jus ni elok untuk kesihatan dalaman org perempuan. Elok untuk buang angin2 dalam badan, dan stabilkan hormon (A few months ago period i haywire...) And since dia buat dari bahan2 asli, tak de campuran bahan kimia semua, apa salahnya kalau i cuba kan... so i try la... My verdict; First time minum; hmmm.... not bad. Tak la pahit, and ok ja i minum. (Since i tgh diet, I amik yg stevia. Tapi kawan i kata yg ada gula melaka lagi sedap. Lepas ni bleh try beli yg gula melaka pulop). Tak sampai 5 minit i minum, i terus pening and loya sebab angin i naik kepala. Lepas i sedawa keluar angin, fuh......

Kawan TTC i forward this message @ my wassap last week. A letter written by a lady who failed her IVF. Lepas baca, i terus rasa... yes... that was the same feeling that i felt after my IVFs failure, Despite the grief and sadness of failed IVF, there was a sense of gratefulness for having to experience being 'preggy' even though for only 11 days. Here goes the letter .... To our little embryos, the ones that failed to implant after our IVF transfer: I wish I knew why things work out the way they do, but I don’t. I don’t know why you didn’t stick around (literally) the way I hoped and prayed you would. I don’t know why our IVF transfer failed, why you didn’t grow into the beautiful little babies I imagined you could have been. I don’t know why I’ll never get to hear your hearts beat, feel your tiny feet kick, or swell with your growing life inside of me. I don’t know why you weren’t meant to become my children. I don’t know why the children I already have won’t get to call y...

Put your hand up if you are Game of Thrones' fan! credit google I am :-) I dah ikuti series ni since season 1 lagi. And i was so excited last nite when the series made its premier in HBO. But at the same time, i masih x dapat terima hakikat yang Jon snow dah mati... Why?! Why he had to be dead?! (Tekup muka). Tak puas ati tau! Anyway, x semua character diceritakan malam tadi. I still don't know apa nasib 2 adik bongsu keluarga Stark (Bran & Rickon). Can't wait for next episode.... Nice name huh? hehehhe...  Saja try create my G.O.T name kat this link   Why don't u try and tell me ur G.O.T name :-) Till then :-)

Rezeki, bukan duit dan wang ringgit je... Rezeki bukan tentang makan dan pakai kita ja... Rezeki tu dalam pelbagai bentuk... Pass exam itu rezeki, anak itu rezeki, hidup bahagia itu rezeki, hidup dalam ketenangan itu juga rezeki. Rezeki ni Allah dah tetapkan sejak azali lagi. Tak ada yang banyak, tak ada yang sikit...semuanya cukup. Sesuai dgn keadaan kita, sesuai dgn tanggungjawab yg kita tunaikan... Kalau kita banyak memberi, InsyaAllah, Allah akan tambah rezeki kita sebab kita tunaikan tanggungjawab tambah itu (memberi & bersedekah). Kalau kita ramai anak, InsyaAllah, Allah akan beri rezeki tambahan untuk kita, supaya bersesuaian dgn tanggungjawab tambahan kita tu. Kalau kita berusaha, InsyaAllah, rezeki itu akan sampai sebab kita dah tunaikan tanggungjawab kita dgn berusaha mencari rezeki. Jgn runsing soal rezeki, sbb Allah takkan aniaya Hamba Nya... yang penting, kita ada usaha, doa dan tawakkal... Dan ingat, rezeki hanya akan putus, bila kita mati... Salam Juma...

Just for my record... Ni result detail blood test on Gula dalam darah & cholesterol i masa health day hari tu. Actual glucose in blood 4.6 (normal) and Total Cholesterol to HDL ratio of 4.0. Tapi bad cholesterol and my total cholesterol i quite tinggi dr recommended point. So still kena hati2 and keep on jaga makan...

Ha... cemana eh u all tau yg relationship u all dah berubah taraf... dari kawan biasa dah jadi teman istimewa? credit to owner Honestly, I x de la kawan2 yg serius masa zaman skolah2 dulu. Zaman Uni, pon x dop. Org takut nak mendekati i kot... I was not really approachable agaknya :-P (tapi tu lah hikmahnya... sbb jodoh i bukan di kalangan kenalan skolah/uni i). Masa zaman skolah2, memang ada istilah 'declare'. Maksudnya, perhubungan tu dikira serius (definition serius budak skolah la ya... hahahaha) bila ada declaration. Apa declarationnya? 'I love u' la kot... kehkehkeh... (sorry, x berpengalaman). And bila dah declare, perhubungan tu dah consider serious and exclusive. For me, i know I'm in serious relationship masa awal2 kenal my husband lagi. Masa tu i dah 24 tahun. Dah ready for marriage. So bila my husband approached me, i asked him straight - 'Ni nak kawan saja2 ka, or kawan (dgn tujuan) nak kawin?' Hahahaha... ganas tak ganas? Of c...