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Tuesday, August 30, 2016

The Decision

Backdated Entry:

12 August 2016

Friday, the Blessed day of the week. 11.36 am. I was browsing my lappy kat opis, tgh tgk barang2 nak beli utk bakal anak kucen i. This was the starting point, when my life starts on emotional roller coaster journey.

My phone's ring out a tone signaling A wassap msg coming. It was from my sister, saying that a baby is available for adoption, the mother is at the hospital already and whether i want to adopt the baby or not... 


And i was like 😱😱😱😱😱 whattt???!!!! Is this really happening? Menggigil i dapat msg from my sister. I mmg x aktif mencari anak angkat. And up to some point i really wanted to try on my own.

It was so sudden, but my heart immediately wanted to say yes... but i'm working and i have classes on the weekend. The baby is newborn. Cemana i nak jaga? And a lot of other doubt came into my mind.
I told my sister, to give me some time and let me discuss it over with MDH.

Lepas i bertenang seketika, i msg MDH about this. His answer just simple - "OK ja, but we need to plan for it". Ye la kan... We are taking responsibility of being a parent. We must be responsible in making decision.

OK, OK... Let's do some plan... the big question yg i terfikir masa tu, siapa nak jaga baby masa i pi keje. Sapa nak jaga baby masa i pegi kelas on weekend? I kerja and ada kelas on weekend, masa bila nak bonding ngan baby? Ya Allah...boleh ke i nak jaga baby, keje and study? Boleh ke?

OK, OK... tarik nafas...lepas...tarik nafas... lepas... Calm down! Think it through... Take step by step...
We need to plan if we want to make this happend.

First thing first -  baby sitter. Siapa i nak carik jadik baby sitter ni? OK...Let's google taska or baby sitter area around my house. Browsing the internet...browsing... ni iklan lama... Taska ni macam tak ambik newborn... huhuhuhu... OK, jom tanya jiran sebelah umah, mana dia hantar anak dia. And nak tak babysitter dia ambik baby...

Msg Masuk - jiran kata, babysitter dia tanak dah jaga baby. Jiran i suggest tanya kat akak yg duduk selang a few houses from mine. Skang ni dia jaga sorang budak ja... So i asked akak A. Alhamdulillah, she said yes!!! Yes! Settle satu perkara on babysitter.

Now on weekend... let's ask my sister. Rumah dia x jauh dr tempat i belajar... and yes, she said yes as well.

But, i think i kena ambik cuti la...nak bonding ngan baby, and nak focus on induce lactation so that i boleh jadikan baby ni anak susuan... i need to take unpaid leave. Errr...cukup ka simpanan nk meet commitment? Let's calculate... hmm... OK kot kalau nak take unpaid leave 2 months...

And i smile...
Lega...terus lega... sebab now i have a plan :-) Next step; further discussion with MDH.


13 August 2016

I was told that the baby was born yesterday! Baby girl. My sister sent her photo, and my heart melted... just melted... (sigh...). I was in my class during that time. And God... susahnya nak control the feeling. Yes, I cried in my class... during the 10-minutes-break-that-the lecturer-gave-us-in-between-the-lecture-where-i-check-my-hp-for-whatssap-messages. After that, i just loose my focus. Just teringatkan the baby, what would be the final decision that we will make, a lot of preparation that we need to do sebab if we were to decide that we want the baby, we need to prepare everything in 2 weeks! Seriously, I just want to lie down and think...


14 August 2016

Over the 2 days, we (me & MDH) think it through... It is 100% for me. Coz bagi i, ini rezeki.I still remember my doa masa last Ramadhan... Kalau cara nak perolehi anak ialah dengan berusaha on our own, I minta Allah murahkan rezeki kami dan permudahkan urusan kami. But if it is dengan cara ambil anak angkat, I minta Allah lorongkan jalan tu.And here it is... Allah dah lorongkan. So I'm 100% yes.

MDH still thinking over the 2 days. I understand... My MIL is still battling her cancer, has a few rounds of chemo. And to have additional responsibility and amanah, it is not an easy decision sebab kat akhirat nanti Allah akan tanya balik sama ada kami tunaikan amanah tu dgn baik ke tak. But in the end, he decided and it is YES! Alhamdulillah... May Allah ease our journey in this...

I was prepared to have a kitten. I end up having a baby :-) Nikmat Tuhan kamu yg manakah kamu mahu dustakan? (crying....)

Please, do pray for us ya... May Allah permudahkan persediaan kami...

p/s: remember my entry Hello? It was all about this :-)

Monday, August 29, 2016

It's tomorrow!


Can't wait! U all pun tertanya tanya kan... Hehhehe... Poyo je i buat countdown... 

Don't worry...
Esok akan terjawab segalanya...

Sapa nak teka countdown utk apa... Meh teka...

Till then 😊

Are we ready?


If u asked me, yes... I'm ready since the past 11 years 😊

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Countdown


Am so excited that i don't even care that i have mid term exam tomorrow πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ

Friday, August 26, 2016

Counting days

Jom countdown with me...


Panic mode


Picture says everything... Panic mode: on!

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Anak kucen

Dah makin besar... 
Anak sedara i dah suh datang umah dia pilih anak kucen mana i nak... Huhuhu... X dan lagi nak pi... Kelas je kan on weekend... 

Sementara tu, meh enjoy gambor kucen2 ni...





Geram nyee tengok 😍😍😍

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

"Anak Angkat"

Entry ni patutnya i buat bulan lepas...tapi busy... ni baru teringat nak post pasal nih...

It was not a light decision to make. Well, at least for me. It is additional responsibility...bertanggungjawab terhadap nyawa lain. Kita yg bagi makan, kita yg kena jaga. Nak pegi mana2 lama2 pun, kena consider 'dia'. Balik kampung, sure la kena angkut skali kan...takkan nak tinggal kat umah...

But from my limited experience, it could be fun kalau 'dia' ada... seronok tgk keletah 'dia'. Terpikir jugak, kalo i outstation nanti macam mana eh? But when i think again, why not...org lain pun outstation gak...kalo org lain bleh manage, why can't i kan?

Yes, i think I'm ready for this responsibility...

Masa mak dia ngandung pun my SIL dah tanya2 i nak tak 'anak' tu. After pikir betul2, akhirnya i agree...


Litter of kitten kepunyaan anak buah i...

Ahahah... Poyo je kan i ni... InsyaAllah one of these kitties will be my 'anak angkat'. Skang ni tunggu putus dia susu. InsyaAllah bulan Oct nanti kot...

I is tak zabarrrr 😁😁😁😁

Till then :-)

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

On Adrenalin Rush!

Ahahaa... yo yo an je i nih... not really adrenalin rush... but excitement from the watching beregu lelaki badminton Malaysia yg berjaya ke perlawanan final.

I saw the game since the 2nd set. Fuhhhh!!!! Sangat mendebarkan. I plak yg terlebih excited and stress menyokong kat umah... huhhu...

Anyway, all the best Malaysian team!

p/s: 2-3 malam ni asik la terbangun tgh malam...pastu mata terkebil kebil x leh tido eh... huhuhu... Can't stop my brain from thinking and thinking... in addition to nak exam next week, tapi study x lagi eh...adoi la....

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Hello...

Oh my... When was my last entry? I don't even remember... Huhuhu...

Ada lg ke readers blog suam2 kuku nih... If there is any, am really sorry for the lack of update. I just have a lame excuse that i was so busy with my work n study (and of course updating my insta πŸ™Š). I found it easier to update my insta since it is very convenient n just need simple updates.

Anyway... How are u my dear readers? As for me, a lot is happening right now. With work, with my personal life. Since naik dari cuti raya hari tu, i memang x dop weekend dah. Been going to my classes. And tomorrow pun i ada kelas... But somehow, i woke up in the middle of the nite and my eyes refuse to sleep... (Sigh... Jgn tido dlm kelas esok sudah la...)

May be because i have a big decision to make. And make it fast. A decision that will affect my life forever. Am praying that Allah will guide me, in making this decision and grant us kebaikan dari keputusan yg dibuat nanti. Will blog sbout it soon (err... Don't count on it.. 😜).

Ok la... I really need to try to sleep. Otherwise there would be a zombie in the class tomorrow, instead of me... Hahaha...

Till then...
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Friday, August 05, 2016

Mini Pavlova yg yummeh!

Hari ni ada pot luck opis. Saja buat makan2... I ditugaskan bawak pencuci mulut.

Sebenarnya lama teringin nak makan pavlova. Since bulan posa ri tu. Tapi malas kemain nk buat sendiri. Nak kecah2 dapur. So amik kesempatan ni order mini pavlova ngan cik Sal.




Mmg sedap sgt mini pavlova ni. X manis sgt n buah2 x masam sangat. Cukup sedap lah pendek kata... πŸ˜‹

Hehehe... Dah tercapai hasrat nk mkn pavlova. Lepas ni kita diet balik ya πŸ™ŠπŸ™ŠπŸ™ŠπŸ™Š
Kehkehkeh...

Till then 😊

Tuesday, August 02, 2016

Happy Bday Abang



Ya Allah, 
Kurniakan dia Rahmat dan Kasih Sayang Mu,
Pimpinlah dia menjadi hamba Mu yg soleh, 
Tingkatkanlah iman nya, 
Mantapkanlah taqwa nya, 
Berikan kekuatan buat nya untuk memimpin ku ke syurga Mu...
Semoga kau pertemukan kami di syurga Mu ya Allah... 

Sanah helwah abang 😘😘😘