Yup! Can't wait for this weekend. Alhamdulillah company i cuti this friday. Cuti ganti public holiday sabtu ni. And monday, i'll take leave. Yey! Why long weekend? To celebrate majlis walimah my lil sis. Will update about it later... In the meantime, enjoy this song... (mood kenduri kawin.... ngeeeee XD)

Just a sharing & refresher for us all. Have a nice Monday! :-)

7 May - after negative blood test result, doc asked me to come to the clinic for second test. The bleeding hasn't stop since last friday (4th May). Though it was still small spotting, it was fresh blood. Doc asked me how i feel. I just said  'i'm ok. It just feel that i'm going to have a period soon'. But according to her, my spotting was too early to be called period spotting. She asked to scan me just to confirm what was happening inside. Once the probe was inside me, there they are...the 2embryos that were placed inside my uterus. I can see it clearly. Just a tiny 2 little dot which according to doc look like 2 baby sac. The doc said looking at the embryos, it seems like i am pregnant. I was speechless. She move the probe to get different view of the embies and still came to the same conclusion. She asked me to take another blood test just to confirm and i need to take progesteron injection just in case i was pregnant. Mind u, the injection hurt like h**** co...

Funny e-mail i got today forwarded by my staff...photo, credit to the original e-mail writer (x tau sapa...).  

Got this article from Yahoo some times ago... Dietician Dawn Jackson Blatner doesn't believe in will power, she believes in environmental control. She says you need to make your environment -- your home and your office -- work for you, as opposed to working against you. Make your home your safe haven where you can make healthy choices automatically, without fighting it every step of the way. Here are Dawn's top three tips for organizing your home to be your partner in your weight loss program. 1. Don't Enter Through the Kitchen The more time spent in the kitchen, the more likely you’ll be eating. Enter your home through the front door, not the kitchen door. When you walk through the kitchen, you’re more likely to snack. By going through the front door you will have time to de-stress and regroup, before letting your hunger or stress from the day take hold of you and make you immediately grab for a snack. 2. Paint It Blue When you think about fast food restauran...

16 Mei ialah sambutan hari guru di Malaysia (kenapa skolah x cuti eh??). I would like to wish all teachers 'Happy Teachers Day'. Hanya Allah yang dapat membalas jasa guru2 dalam mendidik anak bangsa. Besar jasa guru kan...  Banyak pengorbanan guru2 ni, terutama cikgu2 sekarang... I think the job to educate a human is more challenging nowadays as compared to years before. Mana nak handle tugas mengajar, mana nak handle students, mana nak handle aktiviti sekolah, mana nak handle mak bapak students.... susah.... as such, i salute u cikgu :-) Banyak2 cikgu, sapa cikgu yang paling anda ingat? Saya ingat pada cikgu math saya di tingkatan 2. Saya x berapa pandai math... so naturally, it was not my fav subject. Masa tingkatan 2, saya aktif bersukan. Di sebabkan kepenatan, saya selalu x buat homework. Cikgu math ni garang gila... semua student takut dengan dia. Termasuklah saya. Selalunya, kalau saya x sempat buat homework, saya akan tiru jawapan kawan saya yang pandai math. Heheheheh...

My messy working table Yup... it's second day already. Time seems to fly these days... (ye ker? Bukan asik dok tgk jam ke smalam pikir bila nk abis waktu keje ni? Hehhehehe). So far, x banyak lg kerjanya...still doing catch up of things that happend during 3 weeks of my leave. This week schedule still empty, except for 2 meetings. I'm sure there'll be more meetings later. I was worried to come back to office.Worried about what my reaction would be when my friends would ask me how was the ivf going on... I was afraid that i would not be strong enough and just crumble apart when being asked such question. But alhamdulillah... seems like i can avoid being emotional and just anser the question honestly with smile. Belum ada rezeki lagi... that what was i said. An encouragement through e-mail received frm my very best friend had given me the strength to get up and move on. I really like the quotes. It was frm Ustaz Don FB msg. Here it goes; 'Allah tidak pernah men...

Baru lepas menonton perlawanan hoki remaja asia. Sungguh suspense.... siap terjerit-jerit sbb teruja sgt tengok the match. Tahniah buat pasukan hoki remaja Malaysia yang berjaya menentang Pakistan dan menjuarai perlawanan ini. Hmmm.. tetiba teringat waktu main hoki zaman skolah2 dulu... hehehe.... yang pastinya pasukan kami memang 'star' la masa tu... hehehe... bestnya zaman skolah dulu... Anyway, hari ni last berehat sepuas ati kat umah. Starting tomorrow i'm back to office (Sigh...) Wish me luck!  p/s: Huwaaaa.... apsal rasa malas nk keje ni?? bestnya dok umah...

Feeling much better already (as compared to last Friday). But still coping slowly... Still can't talk about it openly and without a heartache or tears. But I can smile & laugh when see funny things/jokes on TV. I can joke around with my hubby. The heart is healing.... slowly. We went to Jusco yesterday... (retail theraphy?? heheheh) Feel so good that I can walk around without the need to be cautious. Hubby wants to buy some clothes and i pun tumpang sekaki beli kasut (kasut kerja i dah nak tercabut tapak...). I have been off from cooking since after the OPU until now. Since this morning doc had confirmed that my  beta HCG is still negative, I think its time to start living my life 'normally' (I'll miss being pampered and get to rest all day long... hehehehe) :-P But I'm still contemplating whether want to go to work or not tomorrow.... Hmmmm.... Thank you for all the motivation & support that you left in my previous entry. Sangat-sangat terharu and it ...

I have been spotting for the past 3 days. Just a brownish spotting. Spotting... then totally gone. Spotting, then totally gone again. Spotting, then totally gone. Worried... yes I was worried. But as much as I can, I tried to stay positive and pray harder. This morning, I went for my Beta HCG blood test. I just keep positive thought. Deep down inside, I feel that I would have positive result. I pray harder to Allah...hoping that my TTC journey could end today. 1 pm - It was no more brownish spotting. It was fresh red blood and it was a stain. I keep on praying... 3.30 pm - Msg from my Doc. The test came back negative. The embies was not implanting. I feel the world was silent for a moment. I was trying to gain my composure and try to face the news bravely. I keep telling myself, be strong... it is not the end of the world. I went upstairs to tell my hubby about the news. And when I saw his face, all the hell break loose. I just cry and cry and cry. I can't even convey the D...