Time... That is what i'm lacking now. Or rather time management.  It's been more than 2 weeks since we have our baby, Amna. Lintang pukang awal2 tu. Maklum la... X biasa. And my mental preparation was only 2 wks prior to her arrival. X mcm mothers lain who had 9 months to get ready.  Honestly, i do feel stress. Especially bila Amna nangis yg i x tau punca. Feel so helpless. Rasa nk nangis sama. Hahaha...  I demam malam kami bawa amna pulang ke rumah. Pakej skali ngan cirit birit. Imagine la nk suaikn diri dlm keadaan x sihat tu. 3 hari juga la i demam n cb. Lps pi klinik, mkn ubat baru ok. The nite i pi klinik tu, balik dr klinik tu amna nk susu. Steriliser botol susu amna baru ja siap sterelised. Bila i buka penutupnya, habis tangan i kena steam panas. Ni gambar 6 days after kena. A reminder to me sebenarnya. To Remain calm. Alhamdulillah today the wound dah elok baik. Also Alhamdulillah, amna is not a fussy baby. Cuma skang ni ada problem on susu formula. Sepanjang dudu...

I memang dah lama niat, kalau ambil anak angkat, i nak jadikan dia as anak susuan. Selain mudah untuk kami jaga aurat sekeluarga, breastfeeding is actually a bonding time.  18 August 2016 I met the lactation consultant at Hospital Pantai Bangsar. She is a freelancer, but the hospital given her an office there. Masa consultation tu dia tanya macam2 la... Penah buat rawatan kesuburan ke tak, penah mengandung ke tak, bila nk dapat baby, waktu kerja bila, waktu rehat bila etc. Basically the interview adalah untuk memudahkan dia merancang plan to induce milk yg sesuai dgn gaya hidup kita.  Then the consultant tgk physical appearance of the breast and show how the pumping session is done. I don't have to worry about buying pump lagi for now, sebab the consultant tu bagi sewa pump for rm200/month. According to her, better pakai hospital grade pump because it is for stimulation purpose. The one in commercial market, lebih sesuai kalau untuk express milk for those yg ada susu. Sbb i ma...

20 August 2016 It's been a week since we made the decision. Today, i ponteng kelas 🙊🙊🙊🙊 pi beli barang2 for my baby. Since i x tau barang apa i nak beli utk baby ni, my husband ajak my sil n mil to join us. Seronok tgk mil pun semangat nak sambut my baby 😊 OMG!!! Seronok gila sopping eh!!! Bukan apa, excited tgk baju2 baby girl... Cantik2... My sil n mil advised us barang apa nak beli, apa yg x perlu. Kind of educational shopping if u asked me 🙊.  Balik umah, terus prepare tempat nak letak baju baby. Baju2 yg dah dibeli siap2 cabut tag harga. Later2 la kita basuh. At the same time, jot down juga apa barang2 yg masih x cukup lagi. 22 August 2016 We have finalised the date to take our adopted baby from her mother. It is on 30th Aug! Am so excited!!! X sabar nk jumpa my baby... We'll have a long journey to plan n travel nxt wk. Can't wait! 😁 Nanti i cerita how is the process ya... 23 August 2016 Hari ni baby dah kluar dr spital. Alhamduli...

15 August 2016 Time to put plan into motion. Pagi2 i dah ngadap boss and inform him that I'll be taking unpaid leave for 2 months to care for my newborn adopted child. Alhamdulillah...boss i OK ja... Then, shoot to KLCC. Had lunch with my BFF. Waktu i share the news with her, i siap nangis lagi tau! kat Secret Recipe masa tu. Org yg mkn sebelah kitorang heran agaknya tgk apasal la minah ni nangis... huuhuhu... that was a happy tears OK. I can't count how many times i have cried talking about my baby. Even lepas solat pon i nangis sbb rasa syukur sgt Allah bagi peluang ni... After lunch, jumpa my indirect boss and inform her my plan as well. Alhamdulillah, settle... 16 August 2016 In the morning, went to clinic yg i slalu pegi, tanya if klinik dia ada bagi ubat for induce lactation. The answer was NO. The doc asked me to see my Gynea instead. So i set an appointment on the next day to meet my gynea. Then I submitted my Unpaid Leave application form. Held department meeti...