Masya Allah.... lamanya i x menulis di sini... masih adakah lagi pembaca di blog picisan ni? huhuuhu... Life has been busy. Especially, perihal keje. Balik rumah, uruskan perihal rumah pulak... Masa yg terluang, memang nak rehat jee... Nak blog hopping pun x dan. Thus, my updates banyak di instagram. Sebab senang nak update... hehehhe... But still, I'll be writing here once in a while. Sebab kat sini, boleh menulis dengan lebih panjang dan meluahkan isi hati. Cepat betul masa berlalu. Dah nak masuk Ramadhan dah... sekarang bila nak masuk Ramadhan, I'll be more sentimental. Rasa bersyukur yg amat sangat, because it was in Ramadhan last year when Allah kabulkan doa i. I still rmember my doa. I asked Allah, kalau jalan terbaik untuk memperolehi cahaya mata adalah dari zuriat keturunan kami sendiri, maka permudahkan untuk kami, murahkan rezeki kami supaya dapat kami tampung perbelanjaan usaha kami. Tapi jika jalan memperolehi anak adalah melalui anak angkat, maka lorongkanlah...

Satu hari di HUKM, masa i melawat my MIL, doktor pelatih datang ke katil my mil. *DI- doctor intern *I- me DI: puan, boleh saya interview tentang pesakit? I: silakan... DI: patient sakit apa ya? I: Ada tumor dalam usus besar.  DI: how did the patient found out she has tumor? I: she's been having abdominal pain for the past 4 days. When we went to specialist they did MRI and found a tumor in her large intestine.  DI: owh... Dah operate ke?  I: belum. But doctor will do it asap as this is considered emergency case. The intestine is blocked. They will take the tumor out and check whether the tumor is benign or malignant. DI: ic... Okey. Tq for your time. I: no problem. You all student tahun ke berapa ni?  DI: third year. Ermmm... Puan ni doctor ke? Hehehehe... Ada muka doctor agaknya i ni 😅 P/s: Alhamdulillah, the surgery went well. Doc kata mudah ja urusan pembedahan my mil. Skang ni concentrate on recovery. Terima Kasih kepada semu...

My MIL sangat baik. I'm so lucky to have her as my mother in law. Rezeki yg x semua orang dapat. Dia x pernah pressure I pasal anak. She knows my condition and she understood. She was the one who took care of me after my 2 laparascopic surgeries and my 2 IVFs. She is one strong women, taking care of her kids when FIL passed away. Last week, my MIL sakit perut for 3 days. Actually she was having abdominal pain since past 3 months, tapi it was on and off. Cuma last week sakit tu berterusan, hence she decided to go to hospital. Doctor prescribed her panadol & antibiotic, saying that she has Urine Track Infection. She asked the doctor, x payah nak scan ka apa ka? And the doctor said, NO need. The next day, makin sakit. My hubby asked my BIL to take my MIL to Salam medical centre. After MRI, doc found out tumor in her large intestine. The intestine was blocked and the tumor area dah bengkak. Doc suggest to operate soon, as the MRI result is not looking good. But since cost pembe...

Minggu ni BZ sket... x dan nak update blog... secara ringkas, ubat yg kena telan... (ignore my chubby hand pls ;-P ) Batuk dah makin kurang. minggu ni abiskan antibiotik. Alhamdulillah... harap2 x dop la jerebu lagik... biar baik terus batuk ni... Keje; lagi 2 minggu nak audit. Banyak sgt keje. stress i. bila stress, makan je la kejenye... huhuhu... nak senam blum buleh lagik...nak tunggu batuk betul2 reda...(alasan!). Tambah lagi tengah budget cycle, nov nak board meeting pulop.. banyak action item nak kena buat... adeh.... stress.... Nxt week, adik ipar nk bertunang, Seperti biasa i la tukang gubahnya... tengah dok carik idea... owh.... bz..bz.... till then... p/s: latest tally Alhamdulillah.... terima kasih pada semua yg vote... (ada gak yg x suka idea ni... mungkin dia x pernah rasa mcm yg kita rasa kot...)

Hello readers... Baru je lepas blogwalking... Rata2nya most bloggers citer tentatng wrap up year 2013 and azam baru. Same here... I'll tell u about my azam in 2013, what happend to them and plan for 2014. Earlier in Jan 2013, there were 3 azam yang i nak capai this year... I nak reduce my weight, I nak habiskan my study and nak teruskan usaha TTC for a baby in 2013. Out of this 3, 2 is in progress and one memang x usik langsung... Yang mana tak usik langsung? Bab nak abis belajaq tu... huhuhuhu.... tak tau la... dah makin tua ni makin malas plak i nak sambung. Padahal just 1 more paper to go. But that one paper la yang paling susah (coz i x buat keje tu dah). Really... i memang berniat nak abiskn belajaq ni... But may be sebab limit to abiskan this paper is up to Jun 2017, so i took my own sweet time nak finish. Isyk... not good... OK. I'll try my hardest to finish it in 2014. InshaAllah... doakan i :-) Second Azam, on usaha TTC for a baby in 2013. I would say, this i...

It was my birthday yesterday :-) Alhamdulillah.... a year older, a year wiser (hopefully). And also a reminder that semakin meningkat usia, semakin dekat kita dengan kematian. Thanks to my hubby for the simple yet meaningful celebration. X buat majlis apa pun...beli kek and makan dengan family members. Tu pun rasa kenyang gila makan coz tengahari tu dah belasah makan nasik (i masak kerang bakar cicah sambal kicap and ikan siakap tiga rasa). Sambut 5 bday sekaligus... This week, a bit busy. Schedule penuh dgn meeting & outstation. And a lot of works to do. I was assigned to design team building module for 2 Away Day...my Section's Away Day and my Department's Away Day. Adeh....the last time i designed a module was during my university days... lamo dah tu... 13 years ago. In addition tu that, this is for corporate team building...tak sama dgn team building utk bebudak skolah.... Masa zaman uni dulu i memang active dgn aktiviti persatuan... and banyak involved in fac...

Huhuhu...Sakit leher since Jumaat hari tu... sebabnya...salah position masa tido atau dikenali sebagai salah bantal (apasal lak bantal yg disalahkan....). Tapi today its getting better. i dah boleh dongak. Cuma x leh laju2...kalo laju2....rasa sakit dia sentap sampai tulang belakang... huhuhuhu... can u imagine it??? One thing yg tak best...sakit leher ni kadang sampai rasa sakit belakang and sakit kepala... memang x selesa la 3-4 hari ni... Banyak dengar org dok bagitau petua nk ilangkan sakit... bantai leher ngan bantal yg kita pakai tu. errr... a bit skeptikal, but pernah buat dulu, and amazingly sakit tu berkurangan cepat... i x tau la apa signifikasinya (cewah!) bantai leher kita dengan bantal tu balik and how it is from science perspective. This time around, x buat sebab x de org nk tolong bantaikan... heheheh... (hubby keje malam...) Ada gak yg bagik petua suh tuam ngan something yg panas, like tuala panas. errr... x buat lagik coz mcm leceh nak panaskan tuala. (padahal ha...

Yey! My 300th post (eleh...org lain dah beribu riban buat posting x bising pun....huhuhuhuhu)... Wow... Tak sangka dah buat posting sebanyak 300 kali sepanjang ada blog ni. Anyway, hope u all enjoy reading my blog as much as i enjoy writing it :-) OK. A bit busy lately. Dengan performance review for FY2013 ni, alhamdulillah.... dah settle yang anak2 buah punya. Tinggal untuk diri sendiri je.... kena siapkan and submit next week. Wish me luck! Move on to my 90 days challenge (Part 4: Oct Summary) (Disclaimer: what i did for my weight loss program works for me, but may not work for u. Pls consult the expert for better weight loss chance.) This month berat dah start moving from range yg i stuck tu. Am so happy with my progress. Walaupun ada sangkut sikit-sikit in terms of pemakanan, but i masih consistent in terms of trying to watch what i eat and exercising. Actually, x de la drastik my diet tu. I pun x ingat i dah share ke belum kat blog ni. Anyway, I ikut what my fren sarank...

Salam Ramadhan to my dear readers.... First of all, ampun ya u all coz i've been hibernating for a while. Ni pun curik masa and gagahkan jugak diri menulis blog yg semakin bersawang ni...Maaf ya... terutama pada yg ternanti-nanti my entry (ceh! macam la ada org yg tertunggu nak baca entry i ....perasan! kuikuikui...). Anyway... for the past weeks and now ni memang la tersangat bz. al-maklum... keje makan gaji, makanya 'patik menjunjung titah' la kan. Banyak kerja yang perlu di'settle'kan. Tapi, kerja kan...memang x pernah habis pun...Other than that, my life is superb! Nothing to complaint, except that my diet need to be re-re-re-re-re-restarted again (hahahaha...imagine berapa kali dah i kick off my diet regim...). and InshaAllah, memang mengharapkan di bulan Ramadhan yg mulia nih, berjaya la menurunkan barang sekilo dua lemak degil... hahahaha.... And talking about Ramadhan, I must say Alhamdulillah.... semakin hampir dengan Ramadhan, semakin terasa keserono...

Seriously, i rasa kali terakhir i beriya mengemas rumah was masa raya. (Hahahahah...nampak nau kepemalasan i neh). Kalo hari2 biasa, selalunya i kemas alternately...kalo ari tuh dah kemas atas, nxt week tu (or next next next week...ikut tahap kerajinan... huhuhuhu...) kemas bawah pulak... kalau minggu nih dah basuh bilik air atas, next week basuh bilik air bawah plak... But this time around, i kemas semua. Hari jumaat, i kemas bahagian bawah...i vacuum bilik and lap segala habuk. Basuh cadar bilik belakang (kat bawah ada satu bilik). Ruang tamu kasik buang segala habuk. Ubah sikit susunan kerusi (lapang skek ruang tamu tuh). Hari Sabtu, I kemas atas lak... vacuum semua bilik, lap habuk2 and ganti cadar. Walaupun nampak sikit je jenis kerja tu, tapi letihnya.... fuh!! I memang salute la kat homemaker sumer yang tiap2 hari mengemas rumah... penat betol i buat keje ni... Dalam mengemas tu, i organise sikit my make-up table. Nama je make-up table, x de pun make-up atas table tu. Yang a...

Setelah ditimbang tara, we have decided that we will postpond our 3rd IVF next year. Huhuhuhu... lambat kan? X apa la.... banyak faktor yg both of us considered until we reached such decision. Antaranya, sbb my eggs. Based on last ivf, my eggs was one of the factor contributing to the failure of last treatment. I did asked the embryologist n doc how can i improve my egg condition? They said, lifestle change. Amalkan gaya hidup sihat. And i know that egg cycle is 90 days...Pastu pose, raya, year end.... so next year is the best time. In the meantime, boleh la i meneruskan my 90 days challenge. Turunkan sikit demi sedikit berat bdn i ni, until i reach healthy BMI.  Yg atas ni, are all the injection that i took during my 2nd ivf. Actually ada lagi gonal syringe yg x masuk. Plus 2-3 syringe yg amik kt spital which were disposed by the nurse. Hopefully with the time that i have now, i boleh buat perubahan positive to my lifestyle n for my 3rd ivf, i won't need to have that ma...

Esok nak masuk opis balik, setelah berehat selama hampir sebulan di rumah. Serious, nak start fikir secara serious how to generate income from home. Duduk di rumah memang sgt seronok! So, apa perasaan nak masuk opis balik? Honestly, x de feeling keterujaan... x de la rasa dreaded.... i feel nothing. Harapnya dapat mencari semula semangat untuk terus berkhidmat selagi mampu... Esok hari isnin....kena kluor awal skek... takut jln jammed.... lama dah tak ngadap jammed.... rindu ke? Of course tak! till then :-) p/s: Niatkan kerja kerana Allah.... kerja adalah ibadah, ikhlaskan hati ketika bekerja... baru dikira ibadah.... peringatan untuk diri sendiri yang selalu lupa!

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Nop... bukan i yg masuk spital. My Bro in law. Doctor suspect ada batu dlm hempedu. Ni tgh melawat dia la ni. Lambat gak doctor spital nih...namo je swasta... Pg tadi buat endoskopi, sampai ke petang nih belum tahu result lagik. Apa pun, doakn semua bjalan lncar... my BIL muda lagi... baru 26 tahun gitu... i swear selimut tu color purple. X tau apsal color biru plak dlm nih.... huhuhuhu... baru nk kata 'sapa la interior designer hospital ni...langsir kuning, selimut purple...' huhuhuhuu.... till then...have a blast weekend everyone :-)

Hahaha...tajuk tak buleh blah.... No I tak kena tembak ya.... Sila baca cerita hari jumaat i sehingga habis... Hari Jumaat, penghulu segala hari. During lunch hour, ada 'dating' ngan kawan baik i masa kat uni dulu. Lama gila tak jumpa dia. Rasanya last masa sebelum I transfer keje di Terengganu (that was tahun 2002). Kiranya dah lebih 10 tahun tak jumpa. How did we met again? Luckily she didn't change her phone number. It was he birthday last 4th March and I wished her birthday. Excited dah lama x jumpa, we set a date yesterday @ KLCC. At the same time, I pun set date dgn akak yg supply ubat (nak kena amik additional dose). Since nak kena bawak cooler beg yg gabak tu, I malas la nak bawa handbag I. Siap letak wallet dalam beg plastik so that wallet i tak basah kena ice pack dlm cooler beg tu. Gerak ke KLCC, terus jumpa akak supplier tu. Time nak bayar.... OMG!!!!! Only ice pack dalam beg tu. I tertinggal wallet I kat opis (which is 4 station away from KLCC LRT station)....

Fuh... when i thought about what happend last night, memang rasa macam separuh nyawa i dah melayang....tak pernah rasa takut sampai nak tido pun macam seram2 je... What happend? Well... my hubby was on his night shift last night. So macam biasa la i sengsorang kat umah. Can't remember pkol berapa... but may be around 8.45 pm or 9 pm cam tu. Tetiba i dengar sound 'beep' that I always heard when doors/windows of my house was open. Dua kali the 'beep' tu berbunyi. FYI, rumah I memang ada pasang alarm. So everytime pintu or tingkap dibuka akan dengar bunyi beep tu. But masa tu I memang belum switch on alarm lagi...Kalo tak sure dah berbunyi alarm i. I selalu pasang bila I nak tidur or bila dah 10.30/11 malam whichever is earlier. oh heck! I'm alone in my house. Masa tu tengah tengok TV kat ruang tamu di tingkat bawah. I dah berdebar gila dah... ada orang nak masuk rumah ke??And since I kat bawah, I suspect if anything may be tingkat atas la... so i pi dapur, ami...

Happy New Year! Yup... you read it right... I'm in the office. It has been a while since the last time i had to come to office during weekend or public holiday. 2 years back kot... That was the last time when i had to do monthly and yearly account closing. My current job doesn't require me to do month end or year end closing anymore.  So, why did i came to the office today? Actually our company had to change into latest version of accounting system. So the old system was frozen to allow the consultant to extract and carried over data to new system. As such, the automated collection system from our customer account was also frozen. We have to do it manually. Just imagine, extracting data from 19 terminals all over the country... tu belum lagi part checking and verifying the info to ensure its correctness... Nightmare... such a nightmare... Just hope for the best and do the best during this downtime period. Pls pray for me and my team. On the other note; Happy new y...

I've been getting a consistent but bearable headache since the past 2 weeks. i thought it would go away. Until last Sunday - it turned into severe headache; plus pain along my jawline and face. Couldn't find any pain killer (x ingat letak kat mana). Last resort - hubby took me to emergency room (coz all clinics nearby our house were closed). My BP was high. Doctor administered pain killer via injection. And ordered me to rest. After 1 hrs under oxygen mask, alhamdulillah...the pain was gone and I can smile again (hahahha...sebab i cried like baby masa sakit tu...) And since my BP had lower back to normal range, doctor released me and we went home. What a drama... I suspected my headache was due to my wisdom tooth growing (coz pain along my jawline). And I was also wondering, perhaps my wisdom tooth would finally show itself? Mana tak wonder...dah 33 tahun umur, x nampak pun tanda2 gigi geraham bongsu ni nak crowning. Yesterday, I went to dentist. Got an x-ray... and behold....

Hallowww....... It's been a while isn't it? Sorry for the long silence. Since after the exam, I couldn't find the right mood to write yet (read: M.A.L.A.S!! hahahhaa...) What about 'kilat' or in omputeh lightning nih??! Nothing... It just that time flies so quickly...sepantas kilat! pejam celik...pejam celik... (sure millions time pejam celik la...) tengok-tengok we've reached end of the year. Tak lama lagi dah nak masuk tahun baru. Bila masuk tahun baru...mesti ada azam baru kan... bila ada azam baru, tu mesti nak masuk tahun baru... heheheh... But before that, let's review whether azam awal tahun 2012 nih ada tercapai ke tak?? Cer teka...cer teka... heheheh (ni apsal gedik sgt nih??) Well..mari kita muhasabah balik pencapaian tahun ni... So far, masih belum rezeki i.e belum tercapai hajatku (bukan akalku yer mcm lagu tu). This is referring to both of my resolution: 1) Nak conceive a healthy baby and 2) nak abiskan my study. So, since x tercapai, kena...

Tengah study...tetiba teringat... calculator yang saya pakai dah lama berbakti kepada saya... Can u see the writing on it? Saya beli calculator ni pada 17 Oktober 2000. Dah 12 tahun dah calculator ni... kalau anak - dah darjah enam! hehehehe... Actually this calculator was bought when i was in second year in university. Beli kat Wangsa Maju. Masa tu Carefour wangsa maju mmg tempat geng2 saya membeli belah stok makanan untuk kami masak di hostel. Macam2 la kami masak...masak pakai rice cooker je tau! heheheh....seronok bila ingat balik zaman2 belajar dulu. Anyway, sejak dari dulu sampai skang seingat saya baru dua kali kot saya tukar bateri. Dan calculator ni lah menemi saya setiap kali saya masuk exam....dari dulu, sampai la exam yang akan datang nih... Skang nih sure dah kluar model lain. Kalau masa tahun 2000, ni la scientific calculator yang mmg mostly budak2 fakulti economy pakai calculator ni (be it bebudak akaun, business, or econ). Besar sungguh jasa calculator nih kat ...