Alhamdulillah... since 2 hari lepas pengeluaran susu dah meningkat kepada 9ml sehari. alhamdulillah... Yeay (clap!clap!clap!) memang seronok bila dah meningkat naik. Makin semangat nak mengepam. Terkejut juga mula2 tu... sebab macam x de apa2 kelainan dalam my routine. But may be sebab konsisten pumping.  I know... nak pam ni memang jenuh. Bukan apa... dah la x dak susu kluar banyak mcm mak2 lain yg bersalin, nak mengepam selama 30 minit seperti saranan my lactation consultant... huhuhu... penat pegang corong tu. Jadi, untuk ilangkan kebosanan n penat memegang breast shield tu, i pakai freemie cup. freemie cup I siap2 perah manual susu sampai abis n collect pakai syringe, lepas tu pakai freemie cup tu. Selit je ke bra, so ur hands are free nak buat apa2. Nak pam sambil masak pun buleh. Memang menyenangkan idup. Actually kalo x nak kosongkan breast pun x pe, sbb freemie cup tu boleh collect susu yg keluar. But utk org yg sikit sgt susu mcm i ni, rugi kalo ...

kan... lama x menulis di sini. been busy with work, study n banyak update kt insta je... How are u dear readers? Masih ada lagi kah pembaca blog suam2 kuku ni? Kadang tu sampai terpikir nak tutup ja blog ni... sbb penyakit malas nak update. Sebab lebih mudah update di insta... Anyway, I alhamdulillah...sihat walafiat. Bagai di pam pam rasanya. Now berat adalah yg paling maksima penah i alami. Huhuhuhu.... thanks to pemakanan yg tidak dijaga and tidur yg x teratur. Kehkehkeh...But i know it is an alasan je... Boleh je nak diet... cuma bila nak diet, mesti ada terpikir 'esok la...', 'nxt monday la'. Huhuhuhu... Siapa geng ngan i perangai cam ni sila angkat tangan. Life is great. Amna is now 4 months old. Belum buleh memusing lagi untuk meniarap. Tapi kalau ditiarapkan, boleh la dia bertahan agak lama. Skang tengah belajar nak memusing. Dia rajin 'membebel'. I slalu post bebelan amna kat my insta. Memang banyak gambar and video amna ja kat my insta tu... coz ...

As mentioned before, i memang dah niat nak jadikan Amna anak susuan i. Selain dari memudahkan isu aurat, i want Amna to grow up with my milk and nak lagi kuatkan bonding kami as mother and child. It is not an easy journey... Masa bulan pertama ambik amna, rutin pam i terganggu. Masih x biasakan diri lagi dgn new routine of having a baby. Bila x konsisten pam, pengeluaran susu terbantut. elok2 i dah ada susu sikit2, pengeluaran susu tu jadi x meningkat and ada penurunan sikit...  Kalau nak ikutkan give up, banyak kali dah i give up. Penat. Sebab Amna x mau nyusu direct feed coz susu i sikit sangat. Pls bear in mind, i dapat Amna masa dia dah 2 minggu. She was already fully breast feed with her biological mother. So bila i try nak susukan dia, (supaya dia dapat rangsang susu i), dia meraung raung x nak sebab sikit gila susu i. 2-3 kali sedut abih dah. Huhuhu... Bila i bagi masa dia dah kenyang, dia tak nak pulak. I tried use medela nursing system, susahnya ya Allah... sus...

Hello dear readers... Masih ada lagi ka readers blog sendu ni. Hahahaha... Anyway, how are u? I doakan smg u all sihat sejahtera dan diberikan kelapangan hati buat semua. I'm back to the office since last tuesday. After 2 months of leave, memang lemau ler nak masuk opis balik. But life must go on... x keje, x dop gaji la pulak kan... huhuhu...mengumpul kekuatan dan semangat. Masa keje mmg dok teringat Amna. X zabar eh hakak ni nak balik umah jumpa Amna... hehehehe... Orait... i still hutang u all cerita on the process of adoption kan... Memula ingat complicated la sangat sebab nak kena pi court bagai... rupanya idak la complicated mana... Orait... on 30/8, i and My Dear Hubby pegi court untuk proces akuan bersumpah mengambil Amna sebagai anak angkat kami. We met Amna's biological mother kat court tu. Sebab the biological mother kena buat akuan bersumpah juga mengatakan dia serahkan anak tu pada keluarga angkat. Pesuruhjaya sumpah di mahkamah tu kemudiannya akan buat ...

Backdated Entry: 12 August 2016 Friday, the Blessed day of the week. 11.36 am. I was browsing my lappy kat opis, tgh tgk barang2 nak beli utk bakal anak kucen i. This was the starting point, when my life starts on emotional roller coaster journey. My phone's ring out a tone signaling A wassap msg coming. It was from my sister, saying that a baby is available for adoption, the mother is at the hospital already and whether i want to adopt the baby or not...  And i was like 😱😱😱😱😱 whattt???!!!! Is this really happening? Menggigil i dapat msg from my sister. I mmg x aktif mencari anak angkat. And up to some point i really wanted to try on my own. It was so sudden, but my heart immediately wanted to say yes... but i'm working and i have classes on the weekend. The baby is newborn. Cemana i nak jaga? And a lot of other doubt came into my mind. I told my sister, to give me some time and let me discuss it over with MDH. Lepas i bertenang seketika, i msg MDH about ...

Entry ni patutnya i buat bulan lepas...tapi busy... ni baru teringat nak post pasal nih... It was not a light decision to make. Well, at least for me. It is additional responsibility...bertanggungjawab terhadap nyawa lain. Kita yg bagi makan, kita yg kena jaga. Nak pegi mana2 lama2 pun, kena consider 'dia'. Balik kampung, sure la kena angkut skali kan...takkan nak tinggal kat umah... But from my limited experience, it could be fun kalau 'dia' ada... seronok tgk keletah 'dia'. Terpikir jugak, kalo i outstation nanti macam mana eh? But when i think again, why not...org lain pun outstation gak...kalo org lain bleh manage, why can't i kan? Yes, i think I'm ready for this responsibility... Masa mak dia ngandung pun my SIL dah tanya2 i nak tak 'anak' tu. After pikir betul2, akhirnya i agree... Litter of kitten kepunyaan anak buah i... Ahahah... Poyo je kan i ni... InsyaAllah one of these kitties will be my 'anak angkat'. Skang n...